I had my first night off....in 5 years. I have nothing to learn. Nothing to sell. Nothing to worry over....well, not right now anyway....and I am giving myself this month to recuperate after...alright...5 years of overwork.
I know that sounds excessive, what a surprise...but George ran to Hamilton to do something and insisted I stay at home with the traumatized dogs...they had a hard day that required 3....count 'em three baths. Sigh...god bless their souls...I do love them...so I sit in the quiet of my home....the dogs asleep...well, the Big Dog had to take a Benadryl so he is all drugged sleeping...but we just threw out their beds...don't worry Patty Zee...this occured after they stayed at your house...so we decided to be wishful and buy them one BIG bed...during said purchase both dogs were being groomed at Petsmart and we ran into one handsome Loach son named Will....who shook my hand with such conviction that had to nod and think "that is one fine handshake"....I love running into nice people.
Anyhow...so...I got soil....soil that I have been planning to get for...you guessed it...5 years. This poor plant has been soldiering through my false promises of replanting for these long years...and tonight while we were at Home Depot getting wood pieces to prop up the bed that the 120 pound flea machine broke....(actually we think he ate a mouse because he had fur in his poop....George said " Oh no...now they are gonna call him 'Old Fur in the Dung Masswohl'...I don't think they will, actually, but I love that George thinks they will..whoever they are) ....so yah, Tyson broke the bed...again... and while he and Cassie were getting conditioned and moisturized at Petsmart ( we went to the pros) we were at the HD getting wood I walked with determination into the garden section and got a huge bag of soil...because that is the only kind you can get....and lugged it around the store like a kid with a teddy bear.

Then after George dropped me off I cleaned the kitchen...as good as therapy...and I put on Julain Molnar's CD, it is called Lullabies for a Sleepless World...and got my plant

( swear to god it looks ALMOST EXACTLY LIKE THIS!)
and the clay pot I have been saving since we moved in here...and while listening to Julain sing ...(it is a fabulous CD...you need to get it....I will find out how you can) I repotted that beautiful plant...it was as good as doing a show...as writing...it made me want to call my sister....book a lunch with Thom....kiss my husband....it made me so happy.
And as I looked over at Tyson and Cassie on the one big bed...(Cassie laid in the middle of it and I had to push her over and make room for the Big Dog)

Wishful thinking?

I poured myself the teeniest glass of wine and sat down to write for the simple joy of it...I thought I should read...or watch TV...or something...while the couch covered in anti-flea juice dries...but no...it is so peaceful...I light a candle...for the first time in forever I light a candle...I had to look for the matches for 10 minutes and blow dust off the candle....and I picked one of my favourite CD's to compliment Julains'....the Patty's ( Zentilli and Loach)....one with a y and one with an i..."Pull Me Through" is their Cd and it is equally awesome...and I just felt so happy and melancholy ...in a good way...you know when melancholy is so satisfying and soul filling?...I listen to Patty and Patti...and cry a little...and smile and look at my plant....and am gaylordy happy.