Wednesday, April 23, 2008
My tummy, Shaw and Otto
Since Otto passed it seems that I have an eating and drinking obsession.
I hesitate to use the word 'problem' because ...... well I don't want to.
I seem to be filling the hole in my heart with chardonnay and ketchup chips.
Ya know what?
Who the eff cares.... I am allowed to have that .... but I will drink Slim Fast for two weeks to get into my summer clothes... healthy, schmelthy.
So.... I still miss the little sweet pup that is Otto with a sadness that catches me by surprise and takes my breath away... but I find the days a bit easier and his life story a bit clearer.
It is easy to think that he was the same as ever until you really examine his life.
I had just convinced myself that he was going to be fine... oh the guilt I felt when it was all done was staggering.
But... you guys.... I saw him last night.... you can call me crazy... and eff you if you do... but I was reading and I saw a shadow pass by the door... Just about Otto height.... George thinks he was on his was to drink out of the toilet...Did you know that even though he always had a bowl full of water he loved to drink out of the toilet... but would not drink out of it if we came into the room... I guess he thought he was keeping it some sort of secret.... what a strange little guy.
George and I have gotten a house up at Shaw this week and are going to spend the next 5 months up here.
We needed a change.
We are gonna rent out our awesome pad to some rich film person!!!
I hope they give a a billion dollars....
I do love it up here in Niagara.
It is peaceful.
George and I have had a fuck of a year.... we need a bit of peace.
I close Happy this week and then do the Party first... I have to say that I haven't been this excited about the Party in a while... I am jazzed!
So much to say... gotta go pick up my sweet from work with the fancy people!